Path Of The Divine Warrior

I walk alone to my corner. It is hot, dusty and empty.

I sit on my stone to contemplate my feelings.

This time I was given a choice to push all this dark emptiness down or let it rise up and out.

Grief pours over me. I feel fear rise up.

Packed with fear I wrap the rope around me. I created this.

My sisters in the journey help wrap even more into my darkness.

I feel trapped, angry, scared.

I'm sick and tired of the repeat. Of this pattern.

Finally I am ready to let go.

Ready to live.

Ready to be held.

Ready to be loved.

I let the ropes drop away. I am free.

I remember…

Living in fear that stopping the rat race would leave me helpless and out of control. I would lose my income, jeopardize my family.

I had so many things on my to-do list that I ignored all the messages from my body. I wrapped myself in my own unseen ropes.

I felt depleted, drained and very frustrated.

I was exhausted.

Then I realized:

My kids don't want to see me all stressed out about getting to work, going to the gym, cleaning the house and my endless list.

They want to see me calm, at peace and loving each minute of what life has to offer in all its FORMS.

They want me to have a deep and meaningful relationship with their dad.

They want me to be happy.

I remember when I couldn't see the light or even think that was possible. I had to be honest with myself and admit that I was really an OUT OF CONTROL MESS!

I so deeply wanted to feel free from feeling helpless. I didn't want to be this out of control, stressed out woman.

I wanted to feel FREE! I wanted to feel sexy and I wanted that wild spark back into my life.

I wanted energy and to feel vibrant but grounded and at EASE!

I wanted to feel connected and passion instead of all this resistance.

I wanted to feel confident, not in a show-off way but in a deep knowing of who I am and what really makes me happy.

I no longer wanted to be just like a mannequin, completely numb.

So how the hell did I get out of this muck? I opened the door for support. This really pushed an edge. I'm all about doing everything myself.

The thought of becoming helpless scared me. The thought of receiving help and it not getting done the way I want scared me too.

But I did it.

And the most amazing thing happened.

I found a mentor and a group of sisters who have supported my growth and healing in incredible ways. Who took me to the desert and witnessed my pain, my ropes, my stepping into freedom.

Nobody owns me anymore. My fear has lost its grip. I know that all my power is within me. I don't have to search anymore.

I live my life on my terms. I am not always the calm mother I want to be, but I return to calm easily. My relationship with my husband is better than ever. And my business is shifting and growing into exactly what I've been dreaming.

If you are ready to let go like I was, ready to feel grounded and at peace, I invite you to join me for a 30-minute complimentary "Divine Destiny Assessment" call. Let's rediscover your spark!

Blessings!

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